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Kanye
So again when I have something to say and questions to ask, I find myself with no one to talk to! So here we go...I've been doing some reading on Islam lately and the more I read the more confused I get. Not about my religion however, reading about Islam is really only strengthening my faith, but about myself. I've lived in Canada since I was 3, and for the longest time I just wanted to be like everyone else. I wanted to wear cool clothes and listen to cool music and hang out with boys at the mall. But when I actually tried any of that I hated it, I didn't get why people did it, and I thought this made me the biggest freak ever! I lived in Canada, this was what Canadian kids did...why did I find it all so pointless? I'm not 100% sure, even now, why I wasn't having as much fun as everyone else, but I do remember that I always felt like "this is it??? there has to be more to life than this!" Now at this point I was still pretty young, it was around the beginning of high school when I decided to learn more about my religion. When you're a little kid you just have this blind faith because your mom and dad taught you that to be good and go to Heaven you need to follow your religion, but at a certain point in time you really have to make up your own mind...so I did, and I chose to learn more. So here I am now, several years later and so happy that I chose the religious route, but faced with an old problem: where do I fit in? I'm caught somewhere between my Somali/Muslim culture and the Canadian culture I've grown up in. It's hard to find a balance, because so much of my own culture is considered strange and even wrong here, and so many of the values and ideas of Canadian culture seem weird and yes, sometimes wrong to me. I don't want to be like evryone else any more, but I also realize that growing up here I have adopted a lot of Canadian culture...so where am I? What am I? I hate questions that can't be answered clearly or definitely...but I guess I'm stuck in limbo 'till I figure it out!
~soulstar
10th-Oct-2005 05:00 pm - On changing the world
Kanye
I was doing some reading this weekend about all kinds of charities and people who've been to Africa to do work on HIV/AIDS campaigns, and it really made me contemplate what I wanna do with my life. I really do wanna be one of those people who gives up a privelged life (ok I'm not exactly living at Paris Hilton standards, but middle class is all good too) to help out the less fortunate. Don't you ever look around and just think "What is the point?" This thought always occurs to me when I'm having a conversation with someone really dumb, lol, or just worried about really trivial and superficial things. What is the point of getting mad because someone cut infront of you in line at the store, or being upset because you can't afford to get the latest shoes you want? There is none! I sometimes feel really silly when I complain about the things in my life, because I'm healthy, I'm in University, I have my family, and we can afford all the essentials inlife, and still have some left over for frivolous things. The more I think about it the more I realize that there is just so much in the world and so much in life and you're not gonna experience even a fraction of it unless you get of you butt and do something! Affect the world, create change! It all sounds so good now...but what about when I wake up tomorrow and go back to everyday life? Here's to hoping I won't lose steam and get too caught up in my own little world.
~soulstar
10th-Oct-2005 04:46 pm - Welcome :D
Kanye
Hey! Welcome to my community!
This is a community created for interesting and socially aware young people to kind of rant about whatever. I'm the Moderator, soulstar, I'm 18 and female and thats about all the info you get :). So post about anything, any interesting articles, movies, good music. I like to discuss religion too so that's also good, I'm Muslim and I wear a hijab...ok so you get a little more info about me...so if you have any questions about that, Holla back!
~soulstar
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