So again when I have something to say and questions to ask, I find myself with no one to talk to! So here we go...I've been doing some reading on Islam lately and the more I read the more confused I get. Not about my religion however, reading about Islam is really only strengthening my faith, but about myself. I've lived in Canada since I was 3, and for the longest time I just wanted to be like everyone else. I wanted to wear cool clothes and listen to cool music and hang out with boys at the mall. But when I actually tried any of that I hated it, I didn't get why people did it, and I thought this made me the biggest freak ever! I lived in Canada, this was what Canadian kids did...why did I find it all so pointless? I'm not 100% sure, even now, why I wasn't having as much fun as everyone else, but I do remember that I always felt like "this is it??? there has to be more to life than this!" Now at this point I was still pretty young, it was around the beginning of high school when I decided to learn more about my religion. When you're a little kid you just have this blind faith because your mom and dad taught you that to be good and go to Heaven you need to follow your religion, but at a certain point in time you really have to make up your own mind...so I did, and I chose to learn more. So here I am now, several years later and so happy that I chose the religious route, but faced with an old problem: where do I fit in? I'm caught somewhere between my Somali/Muslim culture and the Canadian culture I've grown up in. It's hard to find a balance, because so much of my own culture is considered strange and even wrong here, and so many of the values and ideas of Canadian culture seem weird and yes, sometimes wrong to me. I don't want to be like evryone else any more, but I also realize that growing up here I have adopted a lot of Canadian culture...so where am I? What am I? I hate questions that can't be answered clearly or definitely...but I guess I'm stuck in limbo 'till I figure it out!